Monday, June 27, 2011

Who's There? My Heart or My Mind?

The name of my blog is "Randie's Heart Speaks..." It's quite ironic, because lately I have been questioning myself on my actions and thoughts. My mind twists in every direction and when I ask others for their opinions, they just say, "Follow Your Heart" I know my decisions and my ultimatums, but I cannot tell if what I hear is my heart or my mind. Most people can tell the difference, but I'm so caught up in my decisions, that I just feel lost. I feel as though I am evolving as a person. I am so used to being so "mature" and way past my age, but now I feel like I want to live as though I am 21 years old; my real age. I don't know if it's a phase or where my mindset is at. I have another big decision too, that I am back and forth on. Maybe that decision is playing a role in just "giving up" (in a way) and just living like a 21 year old. I want to go out, have fun, meet new people and have no regrets. I want to live like that one sentence, but I feel as though if I run away from my current life and become that person I'm wanting to be, then that will be my regret. All of it will turn into my regret. I wish somebody, someday, somehow could just give me a sign of which way to turn. I'm ready for a new journey in my life, just not sure where to go.