Something Fell Into Place

This weekend, I fell in love. Everything seemed to line up just right. My mind couldn't stop thinking about him and my heart skipped whenever his name appeared on my phone. I felt like a child in a hyper excited state. I felt every word that came out of my mouth was about him. I didn't have doubts, only smiles appeared. I'd stare at his photograph for what seemed like multiple minutes over and over again. We already have exchanged our feelings and love for each other, but this weekend it felt real. I saw him today after many days have passed - I had a pounding headache and was completely exhausted. After a good meal, I couldn't quit snuggling into him. It just felt like there were some sort of new sparks and an improved connection... It finally felt like love. 

It's Unfortunate.

Everybody in my life, besides my family, has let me down lately. The friends that I thought I would have forever have stepped out without a reason. The friends that have stuck around have done so many hurtful small things that it has caused me to lose trust in them. I no longer feel that I can explain my feelings without those words coming back to haunt me/making me look bad. I don't deserve that in a friendship. I'm going to go solo for awhile until the true friends peek their heads out and open up their hearts. It's unfortunate for me and for them because they lost a good, true friend.