Regret.

I have always prided myself with the fact that I live my life with no regrets. My favorite quote always being "everything happens for a reason." Regrets only keep you stuck in the past, causing yourself to rethink your opinions, morals, judgements, and decisions. That ultimately cuts apart at you and tears apart your self confidence. It affects the way you carry yourself, posture and inner beauty. It causes pain within your body, soul and heart. Sometimes your heart even feels like it hurts to simply beat - it's main job. You circle back into the past wishing for a time machine to take you back, so you can fix your past mistake... If you do that, it can all be better. You'll no longer think about it. The tears will stop falling. You can begin sleeping again. The food that used to taste good, will suddenly taste good again. You'll be back to being you. Truth is, you cannot go back. Even though I have always prided myself for livin with no regrets, I now have one, single regret. I have been dwelling on it for months. I have been trying to fix it, but it has only been ruining me and my current life. It has tore me up with its giant teeth and left me to drown. I cannot just walk away - closure is my only hope, but even that is starting to look impossible. Regrets. They only seem to cause more pain. This particular regret, I cannot wait for it to turn into a life lesson.